16.10.11

BBL LDN


Time slipped through my fingers. We took the train, I took off my sweater. The weather, unexpectedly warm. they knew I was stoned. 
We unpacked. the wrong flag, above our castle. We contemplated using magic markers. We ate Mexican in one of London's finest.  We sat on bins and took photos of Big Ben. I bought a beer in secret, I hid it in my bag.  
I woke up drunk, I slept sound. We ate stale toast and jam. The sun was high, on Saturday, at 8am. Time slipped through my fingers. 
I vomited chocolate milk. We humiliated ourselves for a cause, just cause. My elder threw herself, at a man, blew up a condom, insulted her husband. They gave us one free beer. One half-price pie.
We smoked in the cold for two hours. My lip bled. The cabby was from Sussex, the hot water broke.  The lights wouldn't work. We spoke about our homes.
Three of us wore heels. Two of us clicked. One of us was selfish. Time slipped through my fingers. 
I wished the hotel had a pool. I stole fruit, an apple and a pear.  We talked about the way men smell.  A man stole two sandwiches and I pretended not to notice, she made a racist comment.
I was honest, two sat backwards, two faced forward. We walked the lengths of the cabins looking for a Coke, a snack. She reapplied her makeup. It was colder than I thought, we walked. We took the bus. One headphone worked. I heard a song to remind me of last winter. A weekend over.
Time slipped through my fingers.  

11.10.11

EMPIRE.




'All human relations have shifted-those between masters and servants, husbands and wives, parents and children.  And when human relations change there is at the same time a change in religion, conduct, politics and literature'

V Wolfe. 1924

20.9.11

wear the wool


i'll wear the wool and pull the petals over my eyes.
i'll pretend we'd never listened to b-sides 
ate clementines
slept through mogwai
and hated each other for pretending not to
want
the other
when winter comes again,
i'll just pretend.

18.8.11

HOME IS WHERE IS HOME.


Without the summers heat, we've moved to a flat with a graveyard across the street. 
Home has situated itself in a place where reality speaks plainly and the sun stays tucked away.
Stays inside, bent on the hopes that the torrential rain will sort everything out, bring the plants back to life.
They come dressed  in black, with a somber hats that wilt to hide the mood and glasses that scowl reflections of the scene.
Just another afternoon in Dalkeith, 
Our city at a safe distance to keep the season's spirit.  It grows and breaths on thespians, on capitalism, on the dreams of seventeen's willing to work for three quid.
An exit from the depths of it,
My face gleams warpaint, my heart snipped from my sleeve.  I arrive too late, as everyone has introduced themselves to the festivities.  
How can I keep my composure?
Just another obstacle in the everyday retreat.
When one knows they should have stayed home to watch the mourners from the window and feel better about living.
Immobility as my middle name.

9.5.11

CHANGE IS NECESSARY.

I am adopting Helvetica over Courier as my new font.
Smooth.

pretend.

I have gained a portrait of a woman, I have gained the legs of a man.
Susan Sarandon purses her lips, perched high on my desk.  The blue visage of her celebrated face carves a barren chest to heave and whimper.  
David Bowie's limbs arch and twist to remind both Susan and I of thrilling times.  
When sex was plentiful, when nude was the only report of daily news.
Susan's eyes would scowl our starved bones, our bodies swaying to and fro.  David would perform the dance of the Dream Man, allowing us our animalistic nature.  
We'd come in the soft light of the afternoon, flooding in alongside the voices of school children, their Mother's cries. 
We'd devour with lust succulent suppers of rich proportions, the infamous duo close enough to set the mood.
Now, these likenesses mock this lone cub with reminders of the candy walls, the sweetest flavors,  the luxurious. 
All I must forget.
As if they were make-believe, as if it were just pretend.

15.3.11

thaw.


This seasons sensuality's, afresh with the grace of a hidden marksman, waiting to take the lives of those enthralled with the thaw.
He came, he saw.
The first blade slipped under his tongue; the green grass grew all around, all around. Encompassing the floral and fauna proliferated over night; his divine right was to exploit, to oblige.
I came, I saw.
He asked; how does my garden grow?  I showed him the bare bush.  He placed the first bud on my stark bones, the first blossom on the first sprouted seed.  He pricked his finger on the first thorn of my first rose.

We frolicked in the firsts of lavish spring; he'd revived what I'd believed to be the last of sentient life.

No heed paid to notoriously venal nature; his gentile facade hauling closer.
His fervor ignites, but in due time, he casts a wind just calm enough to ignore. 
Just sharp enough to put the cherry out.
Last drags on the last cigarette, last drink before last call.  The last drop from the last glass, a pick me up before we hit the sack.  
Quite contrary to the enlivened spell, no blue bells showed themselves.  
His arms sought frost in morning's dew; from richness to ragged,
my plot frigid, hungry, dull.
The first taste of warmth grapples a cold front to last the summer months.
We came, we saw.